By Sharon Olds
That hour, I was most myself. I had shrugged
my mother slowly off, I lay there
taking my first breaths, as if
the air of the room was blowing me
like a bubble. All I had to do
was go out along the line of my gaze and back,
out and back, on gravity's silk, the
pressure of the air a caress, smelling on my
self her creamy blood. The air
was softly touching my skin and tongue,
entering me and drawing forth the little
sighs I did not know as mine.
I was not afraid. I lay in the quiet
and looked, and did the wordless thought,
my mind was getting its oxygen
direct, the rich mix by mouth.
I hated no one. I gazed and gazed,
and everything was interesting, I was
free, not yet in love, I did not
belong to anyone, I had drunk
no milk, yet -- no one had
my heart. I was not very human. I did not
know there was anyone else. I lay
like a god, for an hour, then they came for me,
and took me to my mother.
The May 2 Top 5 Little Fivers -- Science Fiction list in honor of X2. Number four made me scream:
The Top 7 Lame Nicknames and Mutant Powers
7> BURRITO: Knocks out enemies with a toxic gas.
6> METER MAID: Unstoppable Mistress of Time and Space.
5> SARSGIRL: Able to cause worldwide hysteria through media sensationalism.
4> HOTMAILMAN: Cures male pattern baldness, provides herbal Viagra at cheap prices, enlarges breasts and penises and fixes credit problems.
3> NUCULAR: Induces uncontrollable laughter in his opponents.
2> SWINGLINE: Spits staples with uncanny speed and accuracy.
and the Number 1 Lame Nickname and Mutant Power...
1> BUSHWHACKER: Oh, if only...
And adopted from every single person on LJ after much resistance, Five Famous People I'd Have Sex With. There will be no rude comments about this list or you will be spanked (unless you like to be spanked, in which case you will NOT be spanked).
1. Sean Bean
2. Viggo Mortensen
3. Keith Hamilton Cobb
4. Rutger Hauer
5. Avery Brooks
NOTE: Antonio Banderas might have topped this list if Melanie Griffith did not exist, but she does. Also, if I could have had Robert Beltran in the Eating Raoul era or even the early Voyager era, he would definitely be on this list, but I do not want the current model!
1. Anjelica Huston
2. Beverly D'Angelo
3. Glenn Close
4. Diana Rigg
5. Gena Rowlands
NOTE: Susan Sarandon would be on this list were it not for that unforgivable stepmother movie. Catherine Zeta Jones would be on this list were she married to anyone other than who she's married to. Louise Fletcher would be on this list were I not too in awe of her.