Burning the Fields
By Linda Bierds
1.
In the windless late sunlight of August,
my father set fire to a globe of twine. At his back,
the harvested acres of bluegrass and timothy
rippled. I watched from a shallow hill
as the globe, chained to the flank of his pickup truck,
galloped and bucked down a yellow row, arced
at the fire trench, circled back,
arced again, the flames behind
sketching first a C, then closing to O—a word
or wreath, a flapping, slack-based heart,
gradually filling. To me at least. To the mare
beside me, my father dragged a gleaming fence,
some cinch-corral she might have known,
the way the walls moved rhythmically,
in and in. And to the crows, manic
on the thermals? A crescent of their planet,
gone to sudden sun. I watched one stutter
past the fence line, then settle
on a Hereford's tufted nape,
as if to peck some safer grain, as if
the red-cast back it rode
contained no transformations.
2.
A seepage, then, from the fire's edge: there
and there, the russet flood of rabbits.
Over the sounds of burning, their haunted calls
began, shrill and wavering, as if
their dormant voice strings
had tightened into threads of glass.
In an instant they were gone—the rabbits,
their voices—over the fire trench,
into the fallows. My father walked
near the burn line, waved up to me, and from
that wave, or the rippled film of heat,
I remembered our porch in an August wind,
how he stepped through the weathered doorway,
his hand outstretched with some
book-pressed flower, orchid or lily, withered
to a parchment brown. Here, he said, but
as he spoke it atomized before us—
pulp and stem, the pollened tongue,
dreadful in the dancing air.
3.
Scummed and boxcar thin,
six glass-walled houses stretched beside our fields.
Inside them, lilies, lilies—
a thousand shades of white, I think.
Eggshell, oyster, parchment, flax.
Far down the black-mulched beds, they seemed
ancestral to me, the fluted heads of
dowagers, their meaty, groping,
silent tongues. They seemed
to form perspective's chain:
cinder, bone, divinity . . .
4.
My father waved. The crows set down.
By evening, our fields took the texture
of freshened clay, a sleek
and water-bloated sheen, although no water
rested there—just heat and ash
united in a slick mirage. I crossed the fence line,
circled closer, the grasses all around me
collapsing into tufts of smoke. Then as I bent
I saw the shapes, rows and rows of tougher stems—
brittle, black, metallic wisps, like something grown
to echo grass. The soot was warm,
the sky held smoke in a jaundiced wing,
and as a breeze crossed slowly through,
stems glowed—then ebbed—
consecutively. And so revealed a kind of path,
and then a kind of journey.
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I did not leave the house today. I spent pretty much the entire day importing, locking, exporting, editing and reposting material from one journal to another, separating out my real and fannish identities. I now have redundant backups of all three of my journals: fic, real life, and this one which is sort of in a twilight zone in between. I loved not having to separate out my friends and interests and stuff for awhile -- I loved that everyone who wanted to talk politics and poetry knew I was involved with fandom and vice versa. Now I guess I will be dividing everything up again. Well, my real life journal has more material than ever before, because I transferred everything that's not fannish and not a rant there. And my fic journal is more complete than it has ever been. Now am toying with the idea of locking this journal, because it has so much stuff mashed together and there are so many people reading it whom I don't know at all.
Other than that, all I did was post-travel chores, which were not insignificant, and attempted to clean up after the cat who had a hairball issue this morning, then followed me around whining all afternoon because I wouldn't give her more food until I was sure she was well.
Also near the condo, a heron finds a good place to fluff feathers while waiting for fish.
A rabbit runs under the house across the way.
I'm not sure exactly what this turkey vulture was waiting for but we saw it several times. Do vultures eat dead fish?
A mole crab attempting to burrow into my hand on the beach. I love digging in the sand to find these guys and then watch them burrow away.
A lovely common view from the road heading toward the bay: egrets in the marsh grass.
And even though the water is so nearby, there's a desert climate on the sandy hills at Cape Henlopen and Lewes.
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